Mathew Amos

[Cerberus]

Today i just found out my little brother died. He was 15 years old. He took a bunch of pills and committed suicide. He officially died at the hoospital very early this morning. I had him at my house all weekend for the labor day holiday and he was fine. I am so numb right now and so fucking angry that he bitched out and took the easy way. I just so want to beat 7 shades of shit out of him right now. I would gladly give my life for him to live again.

[klown]

Originally Posted by Cerberus

Today i just found out my little brother died. He was 15 years old. He took a bunch of pills and committed suicide. He officially died at the hoospital very early this morning. I had him at my house all weekend for the labor day holiday and he was fine. I am so numb right now and so fucking angry that he bitched out and took the easy way. I just so want to beat 7 shades of shit out of him right now. I would gladly give my life for him to live again.

Holy shit dude, that's a tough one to deal with. Man I feel for you, my condolences to all of you. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts as you go through with this. Sorry to hear about this man.

[LouEvo XL]

aye my condolences Cerberus....
I lost mine long ago.....same age.....
I understand your anger and frustration.....
All the eyes of your family will look to you for strength and support through this trying time..
Be there for them, be strong for them and quietly speak your peace.
I have stood under the same rain cloud you are now...

I am sorry for the loss of your brother.

H

[gator]

Cerberus, that is the worse kind of news. Im sorry for you and your family, don't know what else to say. I will keep yall in my thoughts and prayers. gator

[Y2K]

Ahh man that's awfull news,never unstood it when a youngster does that,hang in there time heals all wounds.
I have two boys now 20 & 22,still worry about them all the time,big bro always looks out for little bro and I'm sure he'd feel the same as you if his little brother did something like this.
Really sorry for your loss man.

[jamman]

my condolences man.. I am at a loss for words.. My prayers are with you and yours.. jamm and family.

[PlanB]

As you're probably still in shock over this terrible tragedy, please keep in mind there are good people you can talk to, and some are very well trained in suicide, especially sibling grieving...if you're not quite ready for that, please consider the good ol' internet...do a search for "sibling grieving" and you'll find some good info there, ok? Here's just a blurb from one of the sites:

Adults Grieving the Death of a Sibling . . .

When a sibling dies, the world changes in a heartbeat. Oftentimes when such a loss occurs, others fail to recognize that the surviving sibling faces emotional battles on many fronts while working through the loss. Largely ignored, surviving siblings are often referred to as the “forgotten mourners.”
Within this group of surviving siblings is one that is unique—the adult survivor who lives away from home and is mourning the death of an adult sibling. In the case of an adult sibling, attention and words of comfort are usually aimed at the parents, spouse, and children, and not the siblings who may live far away.
The Loss of History

Each family has its own special history and the shared bonds that are a part of that history. When a sibling dies, the bonds are shattered, and the history forever has a void that cannot be filled.
As they grow, children develop certain characteristics and talents. Brothers and sisters tend to complement each other by developing a balance of interests in different areas. However, surviving siblings will need to redefine their roles in the absence of this relationship.
The Loss of Future

When a sibling dies, all future special occasions will be forever changed. There will be no more shared birthday celebrations, anniversaries, or holidays. There will be no telephone calls telling of the birth of a new nephew or niece. The sharing of life’s unique and special events will never again take place.

What Adult Siblings May Expect

·Survivor guilt is normal. Siblings usually have a relationship where they seek to protect each other. Despite the physical distance
that may separate them as adults, this need to have provided protection weighs heavily in the aftermath of the loss.
· Guilt about how the relationship was maintained is common. So often as adults, the sibling relationship has changed from younger years.. Each travels a separate path, and sometimes communication is lacking and ambivalent feelings about maintaining the relationship surface. No matter how good a relationship may have been, the survivor often believes it should have been better, causing guilt.
·Anger over a new role within the family often occurs. A surviving sibling may now be the one expected to care for aging parents, and he or she may have to step into the role of guardian for nieces and nephews. Remaining family members may look to surviving siblings for guidance. All these situations are possible reasons to feel anger over a sibling’s death.
·Fear of mortality. When a brother or sister dies, it is natural for the surviving sibling or siblings to look at their own lives and question how many years they have left, and what their deaths would do to the family.

Adults Grieving the Death of a Sibling

Hang in there as best you can and give your folks as much support as you can! Take care...

[LagerDrinker]

OH Shit! my heart sank as i was reading the details. my sincerest condolences to all his freinds and family and to you who it seems are in shock over it.

[Goshawk]

I am sorry for your tragic loss and the pain you and your family are going through.

[sonoffatboy]

they say the lord don't give you a burden you can't carry..but jeez that is too heavy....much condolences...